I wrote this entry in a discussion group on facebook. I am not sure if I really expected any response, half thinking that my thoughts are not expressed clear enough for anyone to relate, but still, I so needed to share my thoughts …and then came an answer, that awed me! Across oceans and 1000 of km. away a man wrote about the experience in different words, but still I felt I recognized it all and once again I thought about how we get answers, about how we´re all connected in ways we cannot quite comprehend, but we know….we just know…its sometimes a matter of remembering…
This is what I wrote:
I have been wondering…. I saw a woman leave her body during illness… She left it bit by bit, until I think the rest of us were as ready as we could be to say goodbye… Then she left her body entirely. I wonder if the struggle of her heart, mind and body that I witnessed the last few years of her life, if in that struggle, we can somehow see the struggle, the beauty and the love of all mankind? If somehow, each and every one of us holds the tiny speck that holds it all…..
I am grateful to this day that she let me share some of her journey, and as I cry and miss her, I hold my heart in love bigger than me but still small enough to fit a sore heart and the tender hand that reaches out to dry my cheeks…….. I been wondering….
And here is the beautiful response from JL:
Yes, absolutely. I was with my dad as he took his last breath earlier this year after years of suffering with dementia…
And yes, the whole thing very much felt like a sort of portal that put me deeply in touch with these larger truths/realities of the human experience…
The impermanence of it. The wonder of it. The beauty of it. The profound pain and longing that visits every one of us at some point, if not regularly.
There was a breaking of my heart for the world, you could say. A deep compassion for all of us on this journey.
As well as an appreciation for the tremendous courage shown by us to come here in the first place.
Anyway, thank you for sharing Thea. And for this opportunity to share about my experience. Wishing you all the best as you continue to move through your grieving process.